I have been feeling really weird these past few days. Or the past many days. Or weeks actually.
I am stuck in this weird limbo, where my previous life and rhythm has ended and the new one hasn’t yet begun. So in the meantime I find myself floating around in thin empty air, unable to concentrate on doing anything meaningful even though there is plenty to do.
Days pass and nothing gets done. I just sit around thinking about nothing and everything at the same time. Maybe it is a necessary part of the transition? I don’t know. Maybe the limbo and all the thinking are necessary in order to make myself ready for the next chapter in life? Or maybe it is just a silly excuse in order for me to feel better about being lazy and wasting precious time on doing nothing?
I should be
- Studying intensely
- Preparing practical stuff before departure
- Packing down my apartment
- Spending time with family and friends
And instead I am
- Watching crappy TV
- Surfing random crap on the internet
- Walking aimlessly around the house
- Sitting and thinking
Actually I AM spending time with family and friends – that doesn’t take much effort, but all the other things on the to-do list which requires hard work or effort – I don’t do them…
Hmmm – well, I have always worked best under pressure, so I am sure I will get things done eventually, once I start to feel the pressure of time and the inevitable deadline. It is just that when you have unlimited time, then you can also postpone everything – whereas when you have a deadline, you start getting efficient.
And the plane ticket is already bought and paid for – so there is no turning back now. The clock is ticking.
Tick tock, tick tock.
time management = life!
it`s so easily to lose track of what to do,,
but we feel dissatisfied once we realize we r not accomplishing what we HAVE to do…
I think u need to break down yr time on daily/weekly/even monthly basis ,, see where yr time wasters exist, prioritize yr goal
(3 – 4 max at 1st) and just stick to it
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– it works!
plan a mechanism to reward/punish yr self in advance and let 2 ppl be witnesses for that
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good luck in re-balancing
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I thought u were in Jo by now!
I think that is why people have jobs – it helps keeping your life on track. A strict schedule to stick to every day. So when you are in between jobs you can loose track unfortunately.
Anyways – it is not that bad. I am leaving in a few weeks and then I will be busy as hell – so it is only a temporary state of mind. But still annoying of course. But I know myself well enough to say that I will get everything done that I am supposed to. I just cannot tell you exactly when
So no, I am not in Jordan yet – my contract starts in the middle of September. Another month and then I will be there.
a routine helps, but then again,, stress, fatigue, displacement, … and we need a vacation ,, lool
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welcome to Jo [in Sep.]
“btw I THINK I rmmbr that u mentioned u were coming in Sep. in a prev. post ,,, lol”
I remember that feeling exactly – only difference is that I only had certainty for a week and a half before having to be at Aarhus University last year. Before then, I had weeks of uncertainty as to whether I should be looking for a job in Copenhagen to take over after my failed Dutch studies or to look for a place to live in Aarhus to be able to study here. Not pleasent at all.